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Monday, July 6, 2026

Words heard through the curtain

 Patient on stretcher rushed through hospital by medical staff 

Getty images 

You wake up the morning, thinking of the plans for the day.  It is a day off from work, and a full ten hours of daylight lie before you.  Movies?  Go shopping?  Visit friends or relatives?  Go out for lunch?

But, no.  A migraine has woken you up, sends you to the emergency room.  The ER is packed with people elbow to elbow, jockeying for a spare chair.  It is a holiday and all the doctors’ offices are closed.  Everyone in a city of 130,000 is lined up to get help for something.

I was there, oh yes, I was there.  A migraine had emptied me out and left me a dried up worm of a person in agonizing pain.

During eight of those ten daylight hours, an appreciation for the plights of man swept over me.


When a gurney surrounded by curtains became available, I finally was allowed to lie down. In the bright cubicle with my eyes covered, my super hearing kicked in, and unwillingly, I became part of the drama* taking place on either side of me.
 
 
 
To my left? Oh, man. 

On the other side of the curtain a young man (early twenties, maybe) had come in with chest pains.  Thinking it was the remnant of bronchitis from weeks ago, the man/boy talked with the doctor.  His answers to standard questions rang an alarm in my own chest.  Drugs?  Uh, not for a couple of weeks, only ‘coke and some weed.  Drinking binge?  Uh, only a few beers.
 
His answers were always followed by a silence

Each question was asked in different ways.  Tests were run, more questions asked.  Then the man/boy was left alone.  No friends or family brought him in; no one sat holding his hand.

Doctors came in, one after another, to talk with him.  Each time the questions were the same, but the answers came closer and closer to the truth.

Ultimately, the cardiologist came in; he had the results of a Cardio-Ultrasound, which he showed to the man/boy.  Enlarged heart.  Stroke level blood pressure.  Tell me again…drugs…?

The truth came out in almost inaudible whispers.  The next words from the doctor were that this man/boy was being admitted to cardiac care unit, and then if there was any family to be called. 
 
His gurney with all its attached IVs and monitors were wheeled away with the young man/boy in stunned silence.

The ‘mom’ in me wanted to go with him, hold his hand, pray with/for him.  The first two I couldn’t do, but prayer was what I could manage. 

Then I was released after getting a ton of drugs that would kill the monster migraine and restore me.

The other side of the curtain—you never know what you will learn at the end of the day.

...and the curtains come down....

 This happened to me back in 2023, and it was something I will always remember.  I posted this because I have experienced many curtain events in the past 3 years.  Those are stories for another day.

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

War of the Words, again



Confusion reigns/reins

Words are train-cars.  One leads to another.  

Then it blossoms into some other word that confuses the heck out of Third Graders already caught in the web of the Anglo-Saxon confusion.


AND THEN

there is always the homophone dilemma of many other words:

lone/loan; rough/ruff, some/sum. gym/Jim... 



Just some entertainment if you'd like...

Enough of this.  

Can you add to this crazy theme of confusing words?


Can you stare/stair at the bear/bare and spit in its face?

Give it a chance; add to another word train wreck. 

I know I have written a similar post a few years ago, but hey/hay! It is August, it is hot/haute.  There/their are/our to/too many, so/sew many blogs to read/reed, and so little time/thyme.  

This one is for you, Gary!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Stones in a line

San Marcos, CA cemetery 
Surrounded by green

Beneath gnarled olive tree

Three stones.
Old stones—
1920s old.

“Baby” carved in the first stone
.


Below it, “Baby” in the second stone.

At the bottom of the line of three,

Baby


Old stones—
Lonely stones.
Forgotten stones.



"Baby."

Sunday, March 13, 2011

The Broken Heart(s)



Broken Heart(s
I was alone when I lost the baby. 
I didn’t know for sure that I was pregnant, although I had purchased two home pregnancy testing kits.  The first one said “NO”.
 I was saving the second test for another week.  Back then those tests were not as refined, as precise.
But, I was alone.  My husband and two children were visiting his brother and family.  There was to be a ham dinner, and we were there when I became sick with what I thought was the flu. 
John brought me home, left me there, and went back to his brother’s house.  I didn’t see any need for him to stay home with me.
I had stretched out on the sofa, with a ‘throw-up’ bowl just in case.  The cramps in my abdomen would come and go. 
I know what you’re thinking: why didn’t I recognize the cramps as contractions. 
Both of my children had been delivered by C-section.
After a few hours, I was in such pain, and headed to the bathroom.
You know what came next.  Male or female, no descriptions need to be given.
After all was done, I crept into my bed with a heating pad to home against my empty womb.
I was two minds about the miscarriage.  I started mourning for the baby I would never get to hold.  Yet, I was also glad I wasn’t pregnant, because my son was only 10 months old.
Most of all, I was broken hearted.
I curled up in a ball with the heating pad and a box of tissues.
I started crying. 
Susan Kane